You are light and cabbage is a video sculpture presented for the first time at Prospects 2023.

“Super Confident” follows on from my research into online communities that promote healthy lifestyles. For this project I created a digital influencer, Angela Soothe, who invents and sells their own vitamins pills that make you ‘super confident’. The purpose of this project is to demonstrate how easy it is to construct a wellness methodology within an online community. The project consists of an online presentation, the Instagram account of Angela Soothe and a physical presentation, a triptych printed on acrylic.

“Ice bath”, 2021, is a site-specific installation part of the duo exhibition I had together with Kexin Hao at PipExpo during Hoogtij Den Haag for which I printed a large scale shower curtain.

The Swans was created with the occasion of an invitation from the Romanian CUTRA magazine, in 2020. In this project I thought of our relationship with nature, and how we actually take it down in order to build it back up again. One simple example of this is the way we cut down a forest to replant the trees and sell them, or we destroy the ocean and the sea life and we build swimming pools instead. Due to the impossibility, at the time, of setting up a live presentation for the works during the COVID-19 pandemic, my visual contributions ended up being displayed online on the CUTRA platform, as well as in a virtual exhibition of feminist art, 7 scenes at 360°, alongside the works of Admina, alex horghidan, Anna Grozavu, Maria Dimancea, Simina Popescu, in an environment created by Tăietzel Ticălos. The virtual exhibition can still be accessed at: cutra.ro

I made Untired in 2020. The project took the wellness industry and resistance to it as its starting point. At its core, wellness is the individualization of health concerns, the replacement of a ‘makeable society’ by the malleable self. Wellness sells health as a lifestyle choice, a lie that has been successfully countered by the ongoing COVID 19 pandemic.

Through this work, I resolved to offer a critique of the pressure of the individual that wellness establishes. The work was presented as an installation created for my solo exhibition at Pulchri Studio in The Hague in September 2020. I used as a visual space the realm of the bedroom, because the bedroom is the place where we retreat, in defiance of the pressures of treatments and clean living regimes. I focused not so much on “what” the wellness industry is offering, but rather on the question of “why” in relation to ourselves. To be more precise: why do we strive to be clean, and serene at this particular moment in time? What does the pursuit of these goals say about us? What is missing from our lives that leads us to seek spirituality in a retreat, or purification through dieting?

Ultimately, by rebuilding the bedroom as a space of defiance I hoped to allow the character I’ve built up to escape by saying that: you can’t sell anything to a sleeping woman. The text that follows, authored by the post-conceptual artist Alina Lupu, accompanied my work installed at Pulchri.

This video is part of the “Miranda” project, made in collaboration with Nathalie Hartjes (director of MAMA Rotterdam), and the artists Lola Safari and Yung Nora. The project took shape in the spring of 2020, under the framework of Kunstpodium T - an Apprentice Master program that helps young graduating artists hone their presentation skills.

The character I’ve created for the video is called Miranda. She’s a woman that is starting to have her doubts about the self-care and wellness industries and begins presenting these in a confessional type of format. In the video, she’s seen suffering from vaginal candidiasis, a fungal infection caused by a yeast called Candida albicans. Candida normally lives on the skin and inside the body, in places such as the mouth, throat, gut, and vagina, without causing any problems, but it can grow out of control and cause infections. Some symptoms include vaginal itching or soreness, pain during sexual intercourse, pain or discomfort when urinating, and abnormal vaginal discharge.

In the video, Miranda is trying to fix her illness by submerging herself in a herbal bath. But as she does this she starts to realise that the bath is only a superficial cure to her illness, the roots of which are connected to other events in her life.

While putting together my material for this video I got inspired by confessional media, the idea that we increasingly start confessing our feelings and parts of our private life online.

Another point of influence for me was the section of goop entitled goop Ph.D., which references itself as a hub for thoroughly researched health information. goop is a wellness and lifestyle brand and company founded by actress Gwyneth Paltrow and launched in 2008. It has at its core new age principles. Throughout the years, goop expanded from a newsletter to a website, print magazine, and pop-up shop. goop has increasingly come under fire for marketing products that are harmful, based on pseudoscience, and which lack efficacy.

One of the most notorious products is their “Jade Egg” - proposed to be used as a form of vaginal weight lifting. It is, according to their website: “used by women to increase sexual energy, health, and pleasure.” Gynecologists were severely critical of these claims and, in September 2018 the Goop company agreed to pay $145,000 to settle a lawsuit alleging that goop has posted claims about the eggs and about a herbal remedy, both without scientific basis.

“Miranda” bridges this gap between the highly personal, and the corporate guidance we end up seeking to tame our bodily failures.

I made “H is for Healthy” in 2019 and presented it during my graduation from the Photography Department at the Royal Academy of the Arts in The Hague. I felt it was a bit like a gateway drug. It’s the first project in which my initial thoughts about the wellness industry got crystallized. I started by questioning where the will to educate ends and where the selling pitch starts.

My approach in tackling the visual side of the project was rational. I made an inventory of all possible new-age-y therapies one could undergo and then I went about illustrating them, while also attempting to subvert them. It was my first brush with the iconic goop - the multi-million dollar wellness and lifestyle brand run by Gwyneth Paltrow.

I believe Gwyneth has a natural, effortless look and she is super popular because she’s coming up with treatments that make a buzz in the media. One such treatment: vagina steaming. Additionally, she sells a candle that smells like her vagina. No matter the effectiveness of these products, what’s clear is that Gwyneth can sell. She also made the news when a woman undergoing bee sting acupuncture died because of the venom that entered her body.

Gwyneth Paltrow is one of the wellness gurus that endorse apitherapy. Apitherapy is a branch of alternative medicine that uses honey bee products, including honey, pollen, bee venom, propolis, and royal jelly. Within apitherapy, bee venom can have a positive effect, but sometimes, like in this case, things can go down the wrong path.

These anecdotes and varied therapies ended up being the inspiration for my graduation project and they ended up inspiring an art installation, like an abstract world where these ideas about our bodies and health can be stored.

Other therapies I illustrated within this project: the coffee enema and the garra fish pedicure.

A coffee enema is a colon cleanse used in alternative medicine. It has a double purpose, one is for the cleansing of your intestines, which is believed to be important and the other is to provide a good dose of caffeine to your liver, which is believed to help the liver detox more efficiently.

Within the garra fish pedicure, the fish are set loose in the water and end up eating the dead skin off one’s feet. In order to do this, the fish are starved in advance. The practice has its dose of animal cruelty, but it’s also not particularly hygienic to share the same fish with other people.

The not yet regulated wellness industry is built on extreme, unsustainable diets and detox advice, bee sting acupuncture, or regular colonics. As the wellness myths are spreading, the trust in reliable science decreases. In this age of misinformation, fake news, and twisted science, we should ask ourselves: where does the will to educate end and where does the selling pitch start?

The starting point of the work was the concept of “toxic positivity”.

The video work was accompanied by a publication in which I delved into the topic of smiling in photography. I was curious when people started to smile in front of the camera since this wasn’t a universal state of presenting oneself.

This brought me to a few realizations. Among which is the fact that people didn’t always say “cheese” in photographs but they used to say “prune”, to expose a more solemn face. A grin was only characteristic of peasants, drunkenness, and children.

A few studies of the smiles in photography relate the “say cheese!” custom to the faces in media and politics and the rise of dental care which created the aesthetic of the teeth.

Other studies suggested that Kodak played a leadership role in shaping the conceptualization and the cultural habits around photography at the time when technology was becoming mass consume

In “Pain Is In The Eye Of The Beholder” I tackled visuals that balanced on the thin line between the traditional photographic image and computer renderings. I was intrigued by the notion of “surface” in photography and the inherent difficulty of photography in conveying the core of an event.

I delved into the feeling of pain as a starting point for the visuals and to support my work I got great inspiration from this quote from The Human Condition by Hannah Arendt:

“Indeed, the most intense feeling we know of, intense to the point of blotting out all other experiences, namely, the experience of great bodily pain, is at the same time the most private and least communicable of all. Not only is it perhaps the only experience which we are unable to transform into a shape fit for public appearance, it actually deprives us of our feeling for reality to such an extent that we can forget it more quickly and easily than anything else. There seems to be no bridge from the most radical subjectivity, in which I am no longer “recognizable,” to the outer world of life. Pain, in other words, truly a borderline experience between life as “being among men” (inter homines esse) and death, is so subjective and removed from the world of things and men that it cannot assume an appearance at all.”

Ultimately, I found that only through manipulating the image further, detaching it from the traditional photographic act, can one truly begin to trigger an affect that would somehow better convey the pain of the other.